Fibromyalgia ... Yes it's real.

A whole 5 days later and it's the worst again. I literally don't know how much of this I can take. These diseases have taken EVERY PLEASURE from me. I hate it. I God damn fucking hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just when I think I can't cry another tear...they fall like rain and then diminished to an icy cold hate. HS is not a pimple popper god damn joke. It is someone's life melting away while you watch with you giggling ooooo how gross comments while you share it on your page. This is not something for you to laugh at. I'm considering taking my own life while you laugh. Does that make you feel good? Quit pissing your life away if you are an able bodied human being. Quit belly aching and enjoy your fucking abilities. The ability to walk, to sit in a chair without pain. To enjoy a sunny day with your friends or family at a lake or park. The ability to attend a wedding or f...

I haven't posted in a while, but today I have to find a way to get past this awful feeling. This week has been a compound of migraines, boils, sore body and extremely painful back.  Add on to that a summer cold. Right now feels like possibly the worst day of my life. I have NEVER felt like "why me?" more than today. I need to go to the post office and mail a package from a doll I sold. I can barely move from my chair. I have been moaning or crying most of the morning. I just don't know how I'm going to get through it today. Each time I move my head, my neck hurts.If I don't sit still my back hurts. I know this chair can not be good for any of it, but I can't make myself go lay down in bed. All I will do is cry and I don't want to do that. I have a boil on my breast that popped last night and will only drain when I squeeze it. When I do the pain is a 10 and I sweat and feel like I'm going to pass out. Every movement I make is excrutiating. I'm...